Giving Up Control...

this coming wednesday i am teaching on giving up control.

so, as often is the case when you teach, there is this bittersweet thing that happens. God brings personal examples into your midst...which is sweet...the bitter part is that it often means that you have to grow and change personally (which, of course, in many senses is also sweet) which can be a little uncomfortable at times.

this has definitely been the case this week. God has been showing me an area where i struggle to give up control...and it seems it is one that may not be typical or obvious.

i have trouble giving up control of when and under what circumstances i am challenged and grow. i want to be able to orchestrate those times and i don't really like the idea of just stumbling upon those times. ultimately, i don't trust God to be able to set those times up...i would rather be in control myself.

glad to be coming to that realization...and yet, incredibly challenged to begin to figure out how i progress forward in it.

Lord lead me!!